If I could go back 10 years and talk to myself what would I say?
Chris, come out already. You will lose some of your friends, and you may cause a rocky relationship with your parents, but you will be much happier. Your truly good friends will still be your friends and those that are not really your friends, well they are not really your friends. You will also gain new friends.
Tell your best friend when you are considering suicide. Let them help you and do not try to deal with it alone. Your friends will be there for you just like you are there for them.
Make your parents buy you new running shoes more often. As soon as your shins start to hurt it is time for new shoes. Otherwise you are going to injure yourself and never be able to take up running again.
Tell your parents you are not Catholic. Don’t be afraid about how they will react. They probably already know and continuing to go to church every Sunday with them is just going to depress you.
When you get into nasty fights just leave. It is better to walk away from it for hours rather than create a grudge or piss your parents off. Never come back from one of these walks before you are ready. If you do not take the time to cool down it is going to be even worse when you go home.
When you turn 17 your metabolism is going to slow down. Stop eating so much when it happens.
Never buy the first car your dad wants you to ride. It will be a huge mistake. Also, when you are driving to your internship make sure to get new tires first.
Screw money and work at the summer camp more summers. You love working there even though it pays like crap.
Yes, you love computers, but you love a lot of other things too. Consider careers in one of those other things. I am not saying do not go into computers, but consider your other options too.
When considering schools consider at least one school in Colorado. You want to live there so consider going to school there.
But most important do what makes you happy. Do not do what makes your parents or your friends happy.