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July 2007


Faggoty Ass Faggot

This blog portrays itself as being the upper class of blogs. This leaves you with the initial impression that the blogger is arrogant and not worth reading. However, once you read several of his posts you will find a smart witty writer well worth reading that in no way comes across as arrogant. I do not feel a particular affiliation with this blog or feel the blogger and I have a lot in common. It is just simple enjoyable reading that keeps me coming back for more.

I realized today that I have finally reached the point where I will volunteer that I am gay. I realized that if you ask me if I have a girlfriend I would respond “No, I am gay”.

Well almost. There are still a few exceptions to this. One of necessity, one of fear.

First, I would not respond this way to most of my family. I still do not trust my family enough to be able to tell them I am gay. Most of my family would probably be ok with it. But there are a few who I think would have an issue and rather than tell part of my family and ask them to keep it quiet from the rest of the family therefore burdening them, I do not think I am going to come out to them for just a little while longer (a year or two).

Second, I would not respond that way at work. I work in Indianapolis and am in one of the states that do not have a policy against discrimination based on sexual orientation. I am not stable enough to be able to lose my current job therefore as a matter of necessity I will not come out at work yet. Yes, the company has a policy against discrimination based on sexual orientation, but I do not want to take my chances with company policy. Enforcing company policy is a lot different from enforcing the law.

Yet it still feels good to realize just how comfortable I have become with myself, and my sexual orientation.

Action – I hate waiting around for someone else to take care of something. I usually find myself taking action to get everything done, even if it is something I really should not be doing. So you could say I like to take action.

NoFo - (No Longer) North of Foster, (Still) Left of Center

I really can’t put my finger on why, but I have found I really enjoy reading this blog. It probably has to do with the writer being a runner and discussing running on his blog, always a topic I enjoy. And then it probably also has to do with this writer being the first blogger I have seen, truly able to incorporate sarcasm into his work without it seeming initially offensive. Of course, my gut feeling that I know his boyfriend, even though I cannot place him outside of being able to say we are both originally from the same town (data gleaned from the blog), doesn’t hurt my interest in the blog.

I have taken the last couple weeks off to do some thinking. I have been trying to decide if I should continue this blog. I have been trying to decide, if I continue the blog should I make changes. I have been trying to decide what I should write about. So I took some time off to go hide away out in the woods somewhere and have some time to think. Unfortunately, even though I would have loved to, I did not have the option to go hide in the woods but I have tried to give myself some quiet time to think.

Through this time off, I have decided it is time for some changes around here.

First, I am no longer writing under the pseudonym TheTool. My name is Chris and that is what I am going to write under. No, I will not include my last name, mainly because this blog does not need to appear every time someone Googles Chris *******. So over the next few weeks, I will be trying to update all references to TheTool to reference Chris.

Second, I decided to change my post schedule and what I post. Therefore on Sundays I will post my thoughts or a story from the past week. Then on Wednesday’s I will post one letter from an A to Z of Chris. This is a short two to three sentence post with a word about me and why. I am sure this has you asking “Chris, that is only 26 weeks, what will happen after that?” Honestly I am not sure, but I trust myself to come up with something.

Third, I am going to try to post some more pictures. Before you ask, these will not be pictures of hot porn stars. They will be pictures that I think go with the post. Sorry no picture for this post nothing fits.

Fourth, I am trying to improve my writing. However, I can only self edit so much, therefore if anyone out there is willing to be my editor I would forever be in your debt.

Additionally, I feel the current structure of my blogroll does not fit the design of this site. Therefore, I have decided to create an additional page for my current blogroll, and add a new blogroll that are sites I frequent. This will probably take a couple weeks for me to get around to taking care of.

I have a few other things, but this post is already too long, so you will learn of them when I get off my lazy butt and make them happen.

Alone on a beach

I feel like the guy in the header picture. I feel like I am sitting and contemplating alone on a beach somewhere in the middle of nowhere. Well, the past few weeks have made me realize I actually need to do this. I need to take some time and think things through. I need to decide what I want to do with this blog, whether I want to change the direction I am taking the blog or not. Therefore, I plan to take a couple weeks off (we will see if I am successful, sometimes I just get to where I can’t not write).

So sorry guys, but I will be going dark for the next two weeks. Look for my next post sometime on or after 7/24, and don’t worry I will fill you in on the gory details of my two week hiatus when I get back.

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