So I have realized that I have been putting a brave facade on for the last few months both on this blog and to even a larger extent myself. I have realized that coming out is singly and most importantly about being honest with myself. So here goes:
I am scared out of my pants about coming out. This is why I did not go out the past two weekends to a gay bar. In fact I didn’t go out at all, I was antisocial. I keep claiming an excuse that I really do not know anyone who is gay. Yes, there are several I suspect to be gay, but I cannot say that definitively. However, the real reason is I am afraid of being outcast.
I need to get over my fear, everyone has to get over their fear before coming out.