Frustrated
Over the last week, I have been itching to come out. I am excited about beginning a new life being openly gay. I feel it will finally allow me to be me. Everytime I have talked to a friend for the past week, I have just wanted to say “I am gay”.
However, every time I think and almost say this, I am frustrated. I don’t feel I can come out until after I am out from under my parents. Although I know my mom wouldn’t disown me, and I don’t think my dad would, I feel safer waiting until I no longer need their help financially. Every time I want to say “I am gay” I have to remind myself to wait 6 months.
I just want to be able to come out. I just want everyone to be accepting of homosexuals. I just want to be able to truly begin my gay life, not pretend to be a straight guy. I have started to drop small hints, but I wish I could just come out and say it. Honestly, at this point if a friend does not accept me, I do not care. If you do not accept me then I am no longer your friend. I want to be able to come out.
Six months…I just keep telling myself 6 months.