This is another installment of my bio to give you some background before I start current blogging.
Shortly after the move my parents started catching me jacking off all of the time. It seemed I had no privacy anymore as they quit knocking on my door and instead just walking in. There really isn’t a lot to say about this as it is something that almost everyone has to deal with but something I figured I would mention.
I soon discovered gay porn. In my curiosity I started looking for the stuff and knew at that point I was definitely gay. I won’t go into the argument about how the porn industry is evil and will stay out of the politics for now. However, I did get caught.
I was away working at camp for the summer and my parents got into my account. When they got into my account they saw my history and quickly took away all of my computer privileges. I didn’t discover this until the end of the summer and didn’t say anything either as I knew I was caught and didn’t want to get into the discussion.
Well for all my attempts to avoid the discussion after about a month I failed. My parents sat me down one night and started talking. Telling me how everything I did was wrong and bad and could get me arrested. I gave the excuse I was just exploring as I knew my parents were not ready to learn I was gay. They seemed to buy it, but continued to limit my computer access. Or at least they thought they did.
I am quite the computer geek and found ways around their safeguards. When I was home alone it was not uncommon for me to get on the computer go around their safeguards and browse some more. I continued to do that until I moved out.
This and several more incidents are largely why I am still in the closet. I don’t want to explain why until I have covered everything that happened, but I will tell you why I am still closeted.